May 2012
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钱很难赚
today while working OT i sat at my desk and cried. for the third (or fourth) time in my short working life. but who’s counting? this is my 9th month into the job and i know this is how life is going to be for the next few years. if i choose to remain (i probably will anyway). it gets really tough when the people who said they’d help no longer remember they once said that, when your...
March 2012
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on attempting to write creatively
recently i’ve had to help a friend’s friends do short write-ups for their freelance photography business, and now at work i have to write an article for the inaugural issue of our quarterly newsletter (excites!). any writing that doesn’t fall into the category of official emails, official notes, official submissions, official tabulations, official presentations is exciting.
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February 2012
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TO BE HONEST
I tell him he needs to be more honest about his emotions. He says he’s not sure what I mean. He never thought he was being dishonest exactly. Coy, maybe, but mostly in a sexual way, he says, which is supposed to be exciting. No, I say, I mean when he says he feels things he doesn’t or when he denies feeling things he does. Oh, I mean when he’s being ironic, he says. No, I say, I...
January 2012
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hahaha from chewy
Police Officer: Anything you say can and will be held against you.
Me: Ryan Gosling.
December 2011
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no i am not a workaholic
work has been nothing short of crazy..i can’t say much about it so i keep saying it’s crazy/i’m stressed - to the point when i wish i can actually bring work home to complete. but this sentiment is short term (for sure), since work-life balance and not thinking about work once i leave the office is always preferred.
everything is overwhelming. everyone tells me that it is the...
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sigh
yesterday during a rare lull period at work, i spent my time checking out books from bookdespository.co.uk. since they were books that i couldn’t find/would be exorbitant in singapore, it was very pleasing to look at my order form and feel this weird sense of anticipation for when they arrive at my doorstep. and since i was feeling happy about it, i decided to share my joy..only to be met...
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“Have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and to try to love the...”
– Letter Four (16 July 1903) by Rainer Maria Rilke
November 2011
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having and incredibly bad day at work..and i can already tell it’s going to be a bad week
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one of my friends is getting married..but i feel really sad. we used to be really close, then i guess we sort of fell out of each others lives. so many things have happened over the years and now, she’s getting married to someone she just met this year (i think?) - and it makes me so worried. will go mull over it now
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"sweet young things"
first time doing overtime at work today..doesn’t feel good to walk down the deserted gombak hill :( thankfully A was with me. we had so much backlog because two almost-3-hour meetings within a day doesn’t leave much time to clear work. so we ended up missing our shuttle buses - and i fully realise how inconveniently far away i stay from my workplace.
also we’ve made new friends...
October 2011
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pride
because i am so hurt, i will internalise it all. because i want to do nothing other than ask why in the most indignant way possible, i will not but instead i will tell you that i understand. because i disagree with your incoherent sentences and warped logic, i will nod and accept everything and anything you say. because i know that i will not be okay in a while to come (and have never been, for a...
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These Certain Young People
There were two couples, who knew each other because one half of one couple had dated one half of the other. Years ago. Names: Darrell and Jane, Eric and Darcy. Jane and Eric had dated many years before, and this was in the past, it was agreed, and it was fine with everyone all around. All were friends now, yes. Neither of the couples was married, but they were monogamous and happy and 27. All of...
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discovered
that some people
like to boss you around because you’re new.
can be unproductively bossy..at the end of the day, after being bossed around it becomes quite clear that things would have been much better if they had left you alone. naturally, you sort of take the blame when things don’t go as “well”.
think that you’re around to take their responsibilities away. i was...
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i survived
2 days of propagada/brainwashing (which really got on my nerves) but there were nice people at my table..so that sort of made up for it.
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September 2011
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sometimes when everything gets too much i wish that i didn’t have to think about it all - i just want to be normal, to be how i was in the past. this thing has cast a shadow over my last 2 years in university, especially my last semester, it has ruined what could have been purely good memories of graduation, summer, grad trip - and right now it is ruining the start of work, the beginning of...
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accidentally cut my big toe at work today - don’t ask me how it happened but it involved my work table, wood, slicing flesh etc - and now it won’t stop bleeding. i tried to stem the bleeding for half an hour at work but all my tissues turned red and it wouldn’t stop..till i had to put my leg on my table (“raise it to a level above your heart”, so says doctor friend on...
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night fishing
for about 5 times i have written about work here - but before i post anything i do a double take and then proceed to delete everything that i’ve written..oh well. anyhow i’ve met a number of interesting people and yes, it does feel great to earn $$$ and still have enough time and energy to have a life outside work. there has been an increasing number of meetings to attend and things to...
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:'(
it’s thursday night and i feel sad because i haven’t seen my dad since sunday night - he works from 1pm till past midnight, while i leave the house at 7am and sleep before midnight
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i realised i haven’t talked about work, and in more ways than one i actually can’t say much but this much i know - it allows me to have really great work-life balance where work remains work and everyday after i leave i don’t have to deal with much, except maybe the occasional sms. sometimes i think to myself - it’s quite detrimental to start out in a job that’s...
August 2011
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voting
is like a fun family activity..i like how my entire family goes down together - immediately after putting our votes in the poll box my mom asked me who i voted for and when i told her she was very pleased and excited that we had voted for the same person. then she said “SHHHH!!” and i said she was the one getting all excited, not me
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frust
today i called the division and discovered that i have weird working hours - 8:15am to 5:40pm..that’s 9 hours and 25 minutes. they must have really done their calculations to get the maximum number of efficient working hours per day.
and, since camera phones are not allowed, i can’t use my iphone for the most part and so..i have to switch to a dinosaur-age phone?? the kind that has a...
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yucks
just watched New York, I Love You and i’ve finally found a movie i truly dislike - when rachel bilson said “losing your cellphone is like losing your mind” within the first 5 minutes of the film..that was it. no subtlety (with repeated lines like “the thing I love most about New York is..” and “This city is full of surprises, isn’t it?”), characters...
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